Judged

Sometimes at my job, I feel a little bit self-conscious. The people that I work with are so talented and creative and just insanely good at what they do and it makes me downplay my own accomplishments. I really love doing floral design and although I'm not the best at it, sometimes I finish an arrangement and feel so accomplished; I'll look at it and just get this feeling like, "oh yeah, I'm good". But then I look at what the person next to me is making and my mouth drops. Because of this, I often find myself wondering about how everyone else feels about my work. When I'm filling an order or the cooler my mind starts racing with thoughts like "did she just look at my arrangement?" or "I wonder if she thinks I'm crazy for using so much liatris?" I think part of the reason for these insecurities are because when a bride or even just a regular customer will come in and ask for something specific that is not what most girls would deem "cute", as soon as that person walks out everyone (including me) will start criticizing the things she chose. "Can you believe she wants sunflowers for her bouquet?", "What is she thinking using babys breath instead of wax?" or "Cascading? Not hand-held"? It really is quite funny when you think about it and no one should really care at all because we all have our own likes and dislikes and who needs some strangers approval? For that matter, why do I need approval? As long as I feel good about what I do, that's all that matters, right?

I just wish I had a better forehead...

I have a widow's peak. I hate it. You know how some people just have those really nice foreheads and hairlines and they can pull their hair completely back and it looks awesome? I'm not one of them. If I want my hair completely out of my face I either wear a thick headband to cover my disfunctional hairline or I have to take a comb and smooth some stupid little bump into place so that it swoops over the widow's peak before it goes back into the bobby pin. And when I don't I end up looking like this:



Just don't get me started on my eyebrows.

Dreams

Like so many other people, I have often wondered what it would be like to be an Olympian. Who hasn't, right? The Olympics are always so fun to watch, both summer and winter, and I will admit that I sometimes daydream about myself winning medals in certain events. Wow, that is embarrassing but I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one. So anyways, if I could choose any event that I would participate in it would probably be moguls or downhill for winter and swimming or gymnastics for summer. What would you choose?

New Stuff

After I got off work this evening I went to Khol's with my mom to buy some new bras!! Had to type that TAMN style. Anyways, while we were looking around, we found some really cute pajamas that were on sale and we had a couple coupons so I got them. They are so comfortable and for some reason I really really really like getting new pajamas so I was pretty happy. They are a light gray with white floral print and I got a plain white t-shirt that was on clearance to go with them. Here's some pics! I seriously thought about taking pictures of my new bras too but decided that wouldn't be appropriate for a soon to be Sister; so you'll just have to use your imaginations for that one.

P.S. I really like a new song by Michael Buble called "All I do is Dream of You". It might sound familiar if you watched "Singing in the Rain" a million times growing up like I did. If you're a fan of Mr. Bubble, check it out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XD5SMEs7zm8

Cool!

On Wednesday I drove down to Spanish Fork to watch my niece Emma and hang out with my sister Jennie and her husband and some of my friends from school. It was a really fun little trip and this morning before I left Emma was being so cute. Not even kidding, when she and I were looking in the mirror at our own reflections, I said "cool" and in her little baby voice she said "cool"! It was so funny and she said it probably five times. She is so darling.

I love this one!